Writing about life in Venezuela is not easy being kilometers away. Coming back to Norway and re-setting the mind to have an everyday life in here took some time and also meant letting go of life in Venezuela. Keeping in touch was too painful and the distance grew with time.
I have been told, “they all say they will come back, but nobody does”. I guess this is understandable, as circumstances do not seem to improve in Venezuela. I have to admit as I re-entered into Norwegian lifestyle, it is an easier everyday life. On the other hand, despite how comfortable living here is, the feeling of something uncompleted is often present in me.
The last days in Venezuela were chaotic, at least. After deciding to leave there was only six days to complete our buckets list, a task impossible not only time wise, but also the unstable situation put a limit to our adventures. There was barely time for goodbyes.
Back home my head was filled with thoughts about the things that were suppose to come. The longing after a life in the past is not compatible with a life in the present. Consequently, it was easier to push the thoughts away and create a distance to everything, including the writing.
Nevertheless, I want to start writing again. The question is, what to write about? Over half a year has passed since I left and I guess I have had a huge ‘writers block’ since then. Reasons are many, but definitely not lack of interest (and love) for Venezuela. The last words of the last post were: I will be back Venezuela, because you have my heart.
And I am going back! Tickets are booked and I am counting the days until I will be in a car with way too many people, feel the tropical sun on my face, eat greasy empanadas, talk to strangers and most important… see my friends again after the heartbreaking goodbye.
Until then, what to write about? I need some help because neither the gym nor the public transportation in Norway are good sources of inspiration. As I am currently learning Spanish and studying Latin American history I am tempted to write some historical pieces, knowing I will be on thin ice. I could also write about how impossible it is to learn Spanish, a task I struggle with every day at university. If failing on both I can always search my head for some experiences made during my time in Venezuela before I come back to make new ones, then there will be no excuses not to write!
Suggestions on topics are more than welcome!